It barks at no-one else but me,
like it's seen a ghost
I guess it's seen the sparks a-flowin,
no-one else would know

Sometimes I get overcharged,
that's when you see sparks
They ask me where the hell I'm going
At a 1000 feet per second

i got a job offer
when i think about my school fees my normally-innocuous-organs start cartwheeling
but there was a familiar, haunting feeling about that office
probably warning me not to fall into the trap again (maybe cause i'm traumatized)
so. to sell my soul for the sake of school ( worse, i may need to travel sometimes!)
or to remain patient and...possibly die? (or end up thankful)
decision due friday. how nice.

as i took a long cold shower minutes ago
i felt the weight of the exhaustion starting to sink in like huge boulders
i need to stop
i need a holiday (fucking dream on)
i need something new.
i need some happy sparks.
i need a change
i need some fucking acceleration, this has been a complete drag!!

well, i'm not gonna find it. it'll happen when it happens hmm
strange, that just brings me back right to where i started.

ps: someone told me, i dont have to be told what to do. if i'm thirsty, i'd grab a drink. if it's not safe, i cant keep it. if its hurting me, i need to put it away. if i'm injured, i should nurse it. waiting for the doctor will only lead to more bleeding in the meantime.

pps: grey's ep21 will be on today!!!! CANNOT WAIT. *starfish dance*