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i think i get angry quite often because i get delusional
yat is a complete opposite and when he pulls me out i am pretty resistant and i spit back at him instead
i dont think any of you can understand the above statement in its actual sense.
even i found it hard to really understand until..last night.
i also think i have become this horrible throat slitting monster because of what happened in 2005
before, i was a disgustingly timid person its no wonder i was safe from a lot of things
i guarded myself pretty well from everything and everyone, and retreat when it gets hard and cry rather than fight.
i do miss myself, but i dont think i could feel the happiness i feel now (despite relapses...im trying) if i had never met yat because he is the only not-complicated person ive ever met. although i get angry more and more often lately, possibly out of my own deliria, he's actually not that bad. in fact, he's the best ive ever had. (he also supports me when i want to kill people, evven when it includes him.) <3
i really like him.
ps: got something planned out for 44th! :}
pps: hayl i havent really slept (real sleep) for 2 weeks... u should just borrow my eye bags to carry ur luggage to KL and u'll have enough space for a year's worth of storage.
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| yammie ♥ 11:35 PM
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