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i just read amee's blog again and now i feel like ive turned to dust
wonder how Rasulullah could keep forgiving all those crappy people
and i cant even hear the names of those who caused all this hatred in me when their actions are nothing compared to what he faced
But for humans, if someone were to hurt us, we either cut off the person, or we restrict certain privileges right?
..Each time someone hurt me, I will make doa for the person. The more they hurt me, they more I made doa for the person, the more I would send the rewards of my charity and my recitation of the Qur’an to the person. Even when it got really bad, I would cry and fear that on the Last Day, the person would be accountable for what he/she has done to me. And I would ask Allah to forgive the person because I had forgiven the person.
...love was the only thing that made forgiving that much easier.
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one day i will really run away
or kill someone
or more than just one person
i wish everyone would just leave me the fuck alone
i wish i could disappear or be elsewhere
somewhere living things dont exist to belittle,scream,order,question,breathe down my goddamn neck
somewhere i dont have to carry fake, meaningless ties with people through the years and have you think of it as something with immense worth when its just empty and you dont see that because its all been on your side, like i need your approval to know whats acceptable in life, as if i need to meet your expectations to be a person, and yours and yours and yours too
somewhere people i care about dont suddenly reveal themselves to be monsters who would not only just leave but take everything and everyone with them
somewhere i dont have to be around people who are SO FUCKING LOST in themselves
somewhere living things who cant see justice dont exist
somewhere living things dont vent all the weight on their shoulders on me just because i dont retaliate, because my words are drowned by your sodding screams
somewhere parts of me dont start to disintegrate
somewhere an old companion wouldnt fade away
somewhere i would have a friend
anyway
pics of yesterday's trip already been posted in multiply. theres a tonne here.
yanti got pics of ur beloved NEK JAH. HAHAHAHAHAH
cant wait to meet me hearty soon. monthsary this week LETS CHILLOUT
pack food and we'll go somewhere nice or go on ur duck thing lol
miss you heaps! <3
and thanks for making me happy :}
(maybe you're the compensation for all the heartaches and pain) |
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| yammie ♥ 8:44 PM
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