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look, i really dont care anymore
whatever that i say or do, its simply out of me being me when facing people in such situations
so its not really because i truly feel like this means something to me so im being real nice
because it doesnt
i really dont care because i simply cant anymore
the last time i cared for such things, i get trampled over not once but countless times and by the people i least expected to and over time i think theres nothing left in me that feels anything or treasures anything of this sort
theres no part of me that says its safe to trust anything or anyone
so dont make it sound like everything has so much worth and everything's so special.
dont kid yourself, they arent. and everything's just gonna fade off, grow old and die eventually
so if you want to hate, carry on. if you want to leave, go ahead. you wanna be here? great. dont linger. dont shut down on me as and when you please, and then suddenly, you thank god i'm your saviour or something. once you go, dont ever come back.
this applies to you you you and you and you too, because you're all the fuckin same.
and as for you
i apologize for actually plucking up all that courage to try get hold of something that i thought would completely blow you away on ur big day
and have you actually tell me to stop because you assume i was planning to do something that would really humiliate you (even before you even know what the fuck it was. which really didnt matter, now that i see it)
oh, right. of course i would want to embarrass you. right? RIGHT?
of course i would do something that would totally make you feel like you have your privates exposed, by doing something like, perhaps revealing to the world this (suddenly) embarrassing interest?
right, i would really enjoy doing that on your biggest day.
YOURS. of all the people thats left.
the way you reacted was like a slap across my face
and its not even the real thing that i passed to you
but thank god i know now, how i would make a total fool of myself, more than you think it wouldve been for you, had i actually save it all for the real day.
have a long crap day waiting tomorrow
2 interviews at 2 crappy locations
goodnight
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it barks at no one else but me
Like it's seen a ghost
I guess it seen the sparks a-flowing
No one else would know
Hey man slow down, slow down
Idiot, slow down, slow down
Sometimes I get overcharged
That's when you see sparks
You ask me where the hell I'm going
At a thousand feet per second
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| yammie ♥ 8:32 PM
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